Hey beautiful souls at grindr xo

I'm following up on my previous email regarding my account.

My display name is CurvyNThick, and my User ID is 2H9883M501.

I live in rural New Zealand, where there are very few nearby profiles. Because of that, I can't tell whether XTRA would be useful for me without trying it first. I also need to be careful with my budget, so I can't commit to a subscription right now.

I want to be honest about why this matters so much to me. I have spent most of my life carrying a lot of pain from childhood, and for a long time I did not feel safe enough to fully accept or express that I am gay. Growing up, I learned to hide a big part of myself just to get through the day, and that kind of fear stays with you. It affects how you see yourself, how you trust people, and how comfortable you feel even trying to connect with others.

Recently, after a death in my family, something changed in me. It made me realize how short life is and how tired I am of living in fear and silence. For the first time, I felt a small sense of safety and permission to begin exploring who I really am. That has been emotional and overwhelming in ways I can barely put into words. I am trying to do this gently and safely, because I am still healing from a lot of old trauma and I do not want to rush into anything that could make me feel exposed or unsafe.

That is why a free trial of XTRA would mean so much to me. It would give me a chance to explore the app in a more protected and manageable way, especially in a rural area where there are so few people nearby. The extra features could help me feel less lost and less alone, and they would make it easier for me to see whether this app can actually support me as I try to build confidence and connect with others. Right now, I am not just looking for convenience — I am looking for a way to take one small, brave step forward in a part of my life that has been buried for far too long.

I am asking with genuine sincerity and a lot of vulnerability. A temporary XTRA trial would not just be a feature test for me; it would be a meaningful support while I try to navigate my trauma, my grief, and my identity with more honesty and less fear.

Thank you for your time and consideration. I truly appreciate you reading this and understanding how personal this is for me love yous xx

CurvyNThick
User ID: 2H9883M501